10 I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.
12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
The most popular course at Harvard University is an introduction to Positive Psychology, taught by Tal Ben Shahar. Positive Psychology is a relatively new discipline (even considering the fact that Psychology, itself, is a fairly new discipline); its purpose is to take the desires of the self-help movement and put behind it the metrics and scientific analysis of actual Psychology. Tal Ben Shahar's class, plainly put, teaches Harvard students how to be happier.
Shahar's thoughts were turned into a best-selling book called Happier. In his book, Shahar makes it clear that the proper goal of someone seeking a more fulfilling life should not involve being happy, it should be focussed on being happier. "Happy," of course, is a destination that denotes a culmination of effort. Being happy means that you don't have to move past tragedies or challenges...you are a bucket of bliss. Of course, most of us aren't so happy as to not have bad days; but, no matter where we are regarding our personal world views, we can all do things to make ourselves happier.
The struggle to keep up our faith walk can be daunting. We all know just how weak we are; and we also all know people who seem to live lives of faith so effortlessly. Some times it feels like we are a novice ice skater; we get several strides together and start settling into a level of comfort...only to be brought down to the ice by a small mis-step. It's very easy to become discouraged and to "hang up the skates" for good.
Like Shahar's premise in Happier, though, perhaps what we need is a minor change in perspective. Instead of being consumed with whether or not we are truly faithful; perhaps we should understand that each moment allows us to be more faithful. It's worth acknowledging that Peter and Paul, the great apostles of the early church, never considered themselves fully mature in the faith. Both of these apostles saw the life of the believer as a walk with God, in which the humble and committed might learn and grow in faith.
Many of us in Midian can relate to the two unnamed disciples walking home to Emmaus after the crucifixion. Both spent time bemoaning the death of Christ to a stranger, speaking endlessly about what a staggering blow their lives had just taken. Of course, what neither knew was that the "stranger" that listened patiently to their grumblings was actually the risen Christ, patiently walking with the disciples, even when they had lost their way.
Becoming more faithful is not measured by distance, it's measured by humility and determination. Sometimes the greatest steps of faith come after the largest falls in our lives (something Paul knew quite a bit about). Becoming more faithful first involves accepting the gift of Christ's love and mercy, and then responding to it in thankfulness. Christ only called imperfect people to follow Him; the imperfections were not important, but the love and commitment to following Him were....and still are, today.